…and the Battle Continues.
I was officially diagnosed with an eating disorder eight years ago, and all that began more than ten years ago. That diagnosis of Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (EDNOS) has never left me. I’ve...
View ArticleIs it really a relapse if you didn’t recover to begin with?
I’ve been contemplating this question this afternoon. Wondering if, in the ten years since my eating disorder started, I’ve ever actually recovered. I know there are people who witnessed my struggle in...
View Article“I know you don’t mean to be doing this.”
After my last post about respecting my body and doing whatever it takes to look after it, I’m disappointed to be writing this post. I’ve relapsed. I’m in the midst of the chaos and torture that is an...
View ArticleAll I Want For Christmas is…
…to be without this eating disorder. This year my Christmas plans involve a family holiday. Spending a week away with my younger brother from interstate, and an older brother and his family. I’m...
View ArticleWhat Are Your Warning Signs?
Mondays are therapy days. The one guaranteed day each week that I drag my exhausted, sore body (thanks ME/CFS) out of bed, and out of the house. Today was no exception. I spent my time in the waiting...
View ArticleThe Eating Disorder Voice
If you have, or have had, an Eating Disorder (ED) you’ll be familiar with this ‘voice’. That part of you that screams internally at you to binge, purge, starve, exercise, punish yourself. Very early on...
View Article“Was there any reason you haven’t placed an order?”
I had someone from the online grocery retailer I use call me this afternoon. This man wanted to check that I was happy with the service, and wanted to offer me 10% off my order for six weeks, as well …...
View ArticleWaiting
Waiting for a phone call that hopefully won’t come. Waiting for the next appointment with my GP (Monday). Waiting to see my psychiatrist (Monday). Waiting, and quietly wishing, that my electrolytes...
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